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oriharaizayahappy february! ^_^
i mentioned a few posts ago about the fob show that was happening early this yr. it was so good...! i didn't go but i got to watch the stream and good god they sounded so good. unfortunately joe's taking a break from the band for mental health stuff which sucks cuz i love him but it's more important that he gets himself situated first ...
and then fob started doing some really cryptic shit after that... and then they dropped the first single!!! "love from the other side" ... my word is it beautiful. i've looped it so much since then haha... the guitars specifically are just fucking phenomenal. and the vocals... sasuga patrick stump 🙏🙏
after that was another single ! "heartbreak feels so good" ... i really like the melody in this one as well it makes my brain very happy.
their next album is coming out march 24th... now i'm glad it's sooner but a part of me was hoping it'd be may 4 just because cork tree came out may 3rd and tttyg may 6th lol. ^_^;; i preordered myself a vinyl too because of course. i'll maybe get me a cd but i dunno i need to make more money first .
speaking of money... today was the presale for their tour!!!
but it was through ticketmaster.
and the only texas dates were in the woodlands and dallas.
but the prices were not bad! the most expensive seating was supposed to be $129!! so i was excited to sit right behind the pit.
so tell me why the hell i got out of that queue clicked on a seat in that section and the price read three hundred dollars. that is not what we agreed to ticketmaster.
i ended up settling for a bit higher up. it was like $164 total still though because ticketmaster is a pro scammer and tacks on 3 billion fees just for the hell of it. so for that i do sincerely hope they die and go to hell. <3
i might get tickets for the dallas show but i dunno yet. my bank account is... Not looking good right now so i am trying to hold off on spending anymore. (i say after i pulled in the shizuo bday kuji and then bought shit off surugaya more on that later.)
anyways big news! i mentioned last entry i needed to get my license.
i finally did it...!!!
and on my first try too. my parallel parking was okay too can you believe it lol. my turns are still a little bad tho. i am just overly stressed every time i drive. but the important thing is that i can drive!! it's very fun. i love my car very much. i got me a cute tsurikawa for it as well hehe. now i just need to buy 9000 other accessories for it. ☆
so i went to the park the other day right. not for too long, it was already evening and i just wanted to go see if smth i wrote on a bench yrs ago was still there. (it wasnt...) but so i was coming back right. now let me give you some context. the roads where i live are god awful. it is construction nonstop. and some of the new road is already cracked and fucked up all ugly and shit. whatever anyways. so theres this area of the road where it's got these concrete walls on it right. and there's a little bit of a curve in this one spot.
can you see where i am going with this.
i was driving back already a little on edge worried abt my driving when all of a sudden the worst noise to ever pierce my ears comes out of nowhere. i am immediately silenced and sit up, staring straight ahead as i drive the rest of that drive so stiff feeling a few tears at my eyes. all while videotape radiohead fucking played.
and then i got home and ohhh... my poor car.... i was so heartbroken. i went inside crying over it i was so fucked up. it's not like. terrible or anything it's just a line at the bottom but it kinda fucked with the door and started rusting it so i need to take it to the service center or something soon to get that fixed.
back to that surugaya purchase i made. i bought izaya merch to comfort myself from the stress and pain of messing my beautiful car up really that's all it was. er it may be more of a justification haha ;;
but you know what's REAL crazy? like barely a few weeks after i get my license, my dad's truck stops working right. but it's ok! we still have my mom's car and my car while his truck is in for service. so they use them to go to work and stuff.
and then my mother's car also stops working.
so for the past few days my mom and dad have had to share my single car for work. it works out bc my mom works evening shift but there is no room in there for you know... the Actual owner of the car to use it... so that was really stressful. because now i need to get a job. but how the hell was i supposed to apply when i did not even have reliable transportation. and also i just hate not having my car it was very depressing as well. but my mom got her car back today... so hopefully my dad's truck will be fixed soon as well... and then i can go back to being the only one using my car . i hate constantly adjusting the seat.
but about that. so my moms car broke down in town, about like 20 minutes away. so i was going to go w my dad to pick up my moms car and then i'd just drive my car back. there were a few small problems though. 1) i had never driven this far before. but 2) i had not gotten an hour of sleep the previous night. i was driving the freeway with a 150 bpm heart pounding in my chest dawg. it was terrible.
but it was better than i thought it would be lol. i enjoy driving on the freeway because it's just real open and shit so i can just relax. but good lord one of the stupidest things i have seen on the road are these fucking roads that like. go from two lanes and merge into one?? i legit do not get the point of that. it just feels like a recipe for car crashes.
I WAS SO SAD TOO CUZ i wanted to get mcdonalds breakfast this morning before i got fob tix. but my car was not here...... </3 and my normal wake up time is like 1-2 so you know...i dont exactly get up early enough for it normally. but i do want to fix it...
oh this reminds me...so last entry i also mentioned i won that lottery for kenshi yonezu tix in japan ya?
i won't be able to fucking make it. and it's not even cuz of money or nothing like that. it's cuz fob had to come to texas like. a few weeks after ... so i dont think i would be able to make it or even afford it haha. i dunno. we'll see.
i need to get in phys therapy for my back (it's been getting worse lately i'm 19 going on 60) and then mental therapy for my anxiety so i can like. cope better ... and then obviously get treatment for my chronic illness ;____; which is hard considering there are no specialists in houston and the waiting lists are all like months long dawggg😭😭 i do want to start walking tho now that i have my car i can go to the park whenever. now i just need to wait for the weather to get less rainy and cold.
I NEED TO TAKE A MOMENT TO SPEAK ABOUT MY WIFE A LOT THOUGH.
ok so i have always rly loved the idea of izaya my chem fan u know. so like i thought man it'd be cool to see him in my chem merch. problem is i cannot draw. so i was like "ok i will find someone w comms open!" i couldn't find anyone.
and then... like a light shining at the end of the tunnel... there it was. on my tumblr dashboard. a shizuo artist made a post abt comms being open. and their art was so beautiful. so i said fuck it. i dmd them on twitter. and my word within a few hours iirc they had such a beautiful sketch. and then the finished product was so... please look at it.
IZAYA IN MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE MERCHENIDIESE...!!!!
我が嫁…実に美しすぎる…♡
ちなみにねあそこの腹チラくっっっっそ最高ぜ
ong bruh.
and to top it all off the merch he's wearing in that pic is all stuff i have myself. ^_^ house of wolves one of my chems best songs and that damn tote bag i stood in line after the houston show way too damn long for. so ＼ある意味で彼シャツじゃん(*ﾉω・*)ﾃﾍ／ （こいつ何言ってんの⁉⁉⁉）
i mentioned a few posts ago about the fob show that was happening early this yr. it was so good...! i didn't go but i got to watch the stream and good god they sounded so good. unfortunately joe's taking a break from the band for mental health stuff which sucks cuz i love him but it's more important that he gets himself situated first ...
and then fob started doing some really cryptic shit after that... and then they dropped the first single!!! "love from the other side" ... my word is it beautiful. i've looped it so much since then haha... the guitars specifically are just fucking phenomenal. and the vocals... sasuga patrick stump 🙏🙏
after that was another single ! "heartbreak feels so good" ... i really like the melody in this one as well it makes my brain very happy.
their next album is coming out march 24th... now i'm glad it's sooner but a part of me was hoping it'd be may 4 just because cork tree came out may 3rd and tttyg may 6th lol. ^_^;; i preordered myself a vinyl too because of course. i'll maybe get me a cd but i dunno i need to make more money first .
speaking of money... today was the presale for their tour!!!
but it was through ticketmaster.
and the only texas dates were in the woodlands and dallas.
but the prices were not bad! the most expensive seating was supposed to be $129!! so i was excited to sit right behind the pit.
so tell me why the hell i got out of that queue clicked on a seat in that section and the price read three hundred dollars. that is not what we agreed to ticketmaster.
i ended up settling for a bit higher up. it was like $164 total still though because ticketmaster is a pro scammer and tacks on 3 billion fees just for the hell of it. so for that i do sincerely hope they die and go to hell. <3
i might get tickets for the dallas show but i dunno yet. my bank account is... Not looking good right now so i am trying to hold off on spending anymore. (i say after i pulled in the shizuo bday kuji and then bought shit off surugaya more on that later.)
anyways big news! i mentioned last entry i needed to get my license.
i finally did it...!!!
and on my first try too. my parallel parking was okay too can you believe it lol. my turns are still a little bad tho. i am just overly stressed every time i drive. but the important thing is that i can drive!! it's very fun. i love my car very much. i got me a cute tsurikawa for it as well hehe. now i just need to buy 9000 other accessories for it. ☆
so i went to the park the other day right. not for too long, it was already evening and i just wanted to go see if smth i wrote on a bench yrs ago was still there. (it wasnt...) but so i was coming back right. now let me give you some context. the roads where i live are god awful. it is construction nonstop. and some of the new road is already cracked and fucked up all ugly and shit. whatever anyways. so theres this area of the road where it's got these concrete walls on it right. and there's a little bit of a curve in this one spot.
can you see where i am going with this.
i was driving back already a little on edge worried abt my driving when all of a sudden the worst noise to ever pierce my ears comes out of nowhere. i am immediately silenced and sit up, staring straight ahead as i drive the rest of that drive so stiff feeling a few tears at my eyes. all while videotape radiohead fucking played.
and then i got home and ohhh... my poor car.... i was so heartbroken. i went inside crying over it i was so fucked up. it's not like. terrible or anything it's just a line at the bottom but it kinda fucked with the door and started rusting it so i need to take it to the service center or something soon to get that fixed.
back to that surugaya purchase i made. i bought izaya merch to comfort myself from the stress and pain of messing my beautiful car up really that's all it was. er it may be more of a justification haha ;;
but you know what's REAL crazy? like barely a few weeks after i get my license, my dad's truck stops working right. but it's ok! we still have my mom's car and my car while his truck is in for service. so they use them to go to work and stuff.
and then my mother's car also stops working.
so for the past few days my mom and dad have had to share my single car for work. it works out bc my mom works evening shift but there is no room in there for you know... the Actual owner of the car to use it... so that was really stressful. because now i need to get a job. but how the hell was i supposed to apply when i did not even have reliable transportation. and also i just hate not having my car it was very depressing as well. but my mom got her car back today... so hopefully my dad's truck will be fixed soon as well... and then i can go back to being the only one using my car . i hate constantly adjusting the seat.
but about that. so my moms car broke down in town, about like 20 minutes away. so i was going to go w my dad to pick up my moms car and then i'd just drive my car back. there were a few small problems though. 1) i had never driven this far before. but 2) i had not gotten an hour of sleep the previous night. i was driving the freeway with a 150 bpm heart pounding in my chest dawg. it was terrible.
but it was better than i thought it would be lol. i enjoy driving on the freeway because it's just real open and shit so i can just relax. but good lord one of the stupidest things i have seen on the road are these fucking roads that like. go from two lanes and merge into one?? i legit do not get the point of that. it just feels like a recipe for car crashes.
I WAS SO SAD TOO CUZ i wanted to get mcdonalds breakfast this morning before i got fob tix. but my car was not here...... </3 and my normal wake up time is like 1-2 so you know...i dont exactly get up early enough for it normally. but i do want to fix it...
oh this reminds me...so last entry i also mentioned i won that lottery for kenshi yonezu tix in japan ya?
i won't be able to fucking make it. and it's not even cuz of money or nothing like that. it's cuz fob had to come to texas like. a few weeks after ... so i dont think i would be able to make it or even afford it haha. i dunno. we'll see.
i need to get in phys therapy for my back (it's been getting worse lately i'm 19 going on 60) and then mental therapy for my anxiety so i can like. cope better ... and then obviously get treatment for my chronic illness ;____; which is hard considering there are no specialists in houston and the waiting lists are all like months long dawggg😭😭 i do want to start walking tho now that i have my car i can go to the park whenever. now i just need to wait for the weather to get less rainy and cold.
I NEED TO TAKE A MOMENT TO SPEAK ABOUT MY WIFE A LOT THOUGH.
ok so i have always rly loved the idea of izaya my chem fan u know. so like i thought man it'd be cool to see him in my chem merch. problem is i cannot draw. so i was like "ok i will find someone w comms open!" i couldn't find anyone.
and then... like a light shining at the end of the tunnel... there it was. on my tumblr dashboard. a shizuo artist made a post abt comms being open. and their art was so beautiful. so i said fuck it. i dmd them on twitter. and my word within a few hours iirc they had such a beautiful sketch. and then the finished product was so... please look at it.
IZAYA IN MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE MERCHENIDIESE...!!!!
我が嫁…実に美しすぎる…♡
ちなみにねあそこの腹チラくっっっっそ最高ぜ
ong bruh.
and to top it all off the merch he's wearing in that pic is all stuff i have myself. ^_^ house of wolves one of my chems best songs and that damn tote bag i stood in line after the houston show way too damn long for. so ＼ある意味で彼シャツじゃん(*ﾉω・*)ﾃﾍ／ （こいつ何言ってんの⁉⁉⁉）
i did make it my iphone wallpaper btw. just the home screen tho. lock screen would cover his face. : (
(one of the saddes parts of having iphone)
i dont have anything else specifically to say abt izaya i just love him and he's always on my mind check this out tho. 
unreal. this 23 year old doing this shit. i need to marry him.
changing the topic i tried delta 9 for the first time the other day. let me tell you how this went. i swallowed it and only after swallowing it did i think to google "should you take delta 9 with pots" only to see everyone saying No. so already off to a very interesting start. to be honest i did not feel much for a while. it just made me kinda sleepy and stuff. that is until i went to lay down.
my heart hurt. i was so lightheaded. i thought i was gonna pass out bruh. BUT THIS WAS NOT THE FAULT OF THE DELTA 9 SOLELY. i jacked off once and then i tried to go to sleep but while i was like fading in and out of awareness and when i came to for like the 4th time my dick was out so like. it's no wonder i was nearly on my death bed. it was pretty gfunny tho i mean like shit i'd do it again.
hmm... but back to the subject of fob tour... i am so excited... i am tempted to email fall out boy and beg for snitches and talkers live for the first time in 16 years idc what it takes. OH AND THAT REMINDS ME. may 4th izaya orihara birthday is going to be crazyyyyy. i do have more izaya to speak on let me say this.
i got me a bottle of this champagne i had for his bday back in 2020 its so good. and my merch collection is growing steadily. and i plan to get one of those cakes with a pitcher on it so i'll get his stupid face on there. shittt izaya bday 2023 is going to be crazy bruh.
but i think that's all i have to say for now...! idk when i'll write in here next but until then. ^_-☆
